eldritchhobbit

I'm still not feeling particularly great, but my brain has at least stopped spiraling quite as badly. So that's something at least. I'm still definitely worried about covering upcoming bills, but it doesn't feel as completely impossible as it did when I made my last post.

If you reached out, thank you very much, and I want you to know that it really did help a lot. 💕

I'm not quite at a point brain-wise where I think that I can send out replies to people without being completely overwhelmed, and - while I'm not going to disable comments on this post like I did earlier - I probably won't be replying to any of them at least for the time being. I'm at a point where human interaction is definitely difficult right now, especially since I need to save up any spoons I can for work on Monday as I'm in the office that day.

After I made my post this afternoon, I got offline for several hours. I forced myself to clean the hotel room before buzzing my hair, taking a shower, bleaching my roots, and putting some dye in my hair to re-up the orange. Honestly, it wasn't much in the grand scheme of things, but it at least helped some.

And then I tried to go to bed early, although that clearly didn't work out very well considering it's a little after midnight and I've given up and am back on the computer. As is often the case when I go to bed too early, my body decided it was intended to be a nap rather than proper sleep, so I'm wide awake again and probably will remain so until at least 3am now.

Still, my spoons continue to be very much in the negative, but I at least feel more like a human being than I did earlier. One step at a time, I suppose?

In tonight's game, ( the rest under a cut for those who don't care. )

And that's where we left off.

The Arlathan eXchange, a Dragon Age exchange focusing on elves, went live today. This year, I got not one but two lovely fics! 💕

First up is 152.41 is the Dewey Decimal for Love, a DA:TV fic featuring Bellara Lurate/Nonbinary Elf Aldwir. It's a Modern AU set in a university.

Then there's Mended Scars & Mended Hearts, which features Alistair/F!Surana/Leliana.

We've lost another one. Goodbye, Hot Lips. 🙁

I really need to add a M*A*S*H rewatch to my ever-growing list. I started one last year, but then work exploded and I just... never got back to it. Maybe I can do that when and if I finish the Babylon 5 rewatch.

"I'm exhausted from not getting enough sleep, and my spoons are gone after the hell that was work today," I said yesterday evening after getting home from work.

"I have so many things that I need to get done this evening, but I don't have the energy right now," I said. "Plus my head's really starting to hurt."

"You know what?" I asked myself. "A short nap will be the perfect solution."

Spoiler: it was not the perfect solution for accomplishing things yesterday evening. Why not? Because instead of it being a short nap, it turned into a full night's sleep.

Oops?

Seriously, I didn't even turn out the lights. I curled up on top of the comforter on the bed. I wasn't even under the sheets. And I still slept for hours.

Luckily, I woke up for something like twenty minutes a little before midnight. That gave me time to take care of a couple of things that I really had to do, and then I was able to at least turn out the lights and such. But, yeah. That wasn't exactly what my plan was for yesterday. It's certainly what happened, though.

Welp. I didn't accomplish quite as much as I'd hoped this weekend, but hiding in the hotel for most of it definitely seems to have helped increase my spoons. Now if my head would just stop hurting, I'd be all set to go back to work in the morning.

I spent most of the weekend catching up on sleep and reading/writing fanfiction, although I did manage to watch a few new-to-me movies here and there which was a nice plus. My plans to play video games fell through, mostly due to my concentration being shot my first few days off. There was definitely a part of me that wanted to play, but I couldn't drum up the energy to actually open a game and start playing, so I just... didn't.

Still, sleeping and reading with some movie watching isn't bad. I'll take what I can get.

My legs are sadly still a bit of a mess from my fall on Friday. The left one is just bruised and a little scraped, but my right ankle and knee both continue to have swelling in addition to similar scrapes and bruises as the left leg. Add in the psoriasis on both of them, and they both look pretty horrifying at the moment. While I'm limping some, I can still walk, so I'm counting that as a win.